happy holidays

merry christmas and happy new year, dear readers (na hanggang ngayon pinagduduhan ko kung may nagbabasa man talaga).

i am going to reward this blog for sticking with me for five years. and what would that be?

of course, a new blog. (sabog na nito shit.) hahaha

i'm really close to accomplishing it. i made a new email for it. i have the topics in mind. but the greatest problem is what should i name it. i need help. probably, i'd "launch" it next year.

Happy holidays, people. get fat. but don't burn the holiday fats.

Again, Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!

a new blog

i'm actually thinking of making a new blog. this time it would be, i guess, better for the simple reason that the topics are limited - unlike this one, very random and personal.

i'm thinking of making a blog about recent economic news(and my take on them)+music+art+random cool stuff. it's like going to stumbleupon+swiss-miss+the cool hunter+the economist (okay, feeling). i guess the economic part's kinda off. but i just wanna practice what i've been learning in my (under)graduate studies. about the others, i've been digging on them lately.

or let's just say that this blog would be very cool. and serious too.

however, there are constraints. with my really really light load, this would be a hassle. plus, the topics are kinda sabog - like i don't know who's my target market. and what would this blog actually be for? hmm. help help help

merry christmas na lang.

first of all, merry christmas to all of you(which i hope there's someone out there who's reading this).

second, i just wanted to say that this is (for lack of a better term) worst christmas. ever since the media started counting down last september, i've felt that this is not the christmas that i've been waiting for - unlike when i was a kid. so many things has happened this year. from natural to personal calamities. though yesterday, which usually is the highlight of the holiday, should be fun, it turned out to be bad. as much as i want to share it all to you(my hypothetical reader), i just would like to summarize it into a "crappy day" coz' things didn't turn out the way it should be.

okay, enough with the rant. or maybe not.

christmas should always be about celebrating His existence here on earth and how He saved us all. yes, i know that it should really be the case. but because of my hedonistic ways (or the way i thought of things as i grew up), that does not carry much of my sentiments towards christmas.

christmas, for me, is a time for (my) family to bond. starting from the yearly eve merienda/cena 'til the noche buena at midnight to the waking up at breakfast of the eve's leftover food. but as years pass by, i think, though the quantity of the chances of getting it into reality is constantly increasing, its quality diminishes by the same amount (and i hope you'd get my economic analogy). i suddenly felt that the opportunity cost's been increasing rapidly and no one has noticed it yet (i.e., to post and say it out loud in a blog) except for me (welcome to egocentric arjay).

or maybe, i can safely say that we're in the critical stage of production (of making every christmas genuinely happy). i mean, just a step forward, we're going to experience diminishing marginal returns - that as we make more efforts to achieve it, happiness in return decreases. and i don't want this to happen. yeah, i know what you're probably thinking right now. maybe i am in denial.

seriously, enough with the rants.

all i wanted to say is that i wish i could still feel (yep, i know christmas isn't just about feeling it) the same way sentiments back in days - when i would be happy during christmas not only due to opening of gifts but by opening myself to my family and by learning more things from them.

i guess that would do for my christmas post. merry christmas na lang.

i should be happy. yeah, i think i am. physically i guess.
but something's wrong. this should not be happening, right now.
should i like it? that i don't know.

the news is really depressing. i never thought that people from the same race could do such thing. this could be one of the worst news ever reported. i am hoping that justice would be served.

so who's gonna watch you die?

"love is watching someone die,
so who's gonna watch you die."
- what sarah said by death cab for cutie


the video made me reflect.

how much are we really willing to sacrifice?

when your efforts are not recognized, are we willing to repeat them, again and again? just for a single glance? or an (in)sincere clap?

should we blame them for our non-existence? or we only got our selves to blame?

are our sacrifices really worthy? should we consider what they are going to say? how are they going to react?

are we alleviated from hurt by sacrificing ourselves for others? are they alleviated from hurt by sacrificing ourselves.

damn it.

i sort of hate twitter becoz it made long posts not worth reading.

lunch and travelling

during the first sem, my brother and i have been going to our mother's office to have lunch. with lunches spent at mom's place, i get to a)save since transpo to her place is cheaper than the food i eat at school and b)to eat more delicious food.

these serve also as escape. i get a break from my blockmates and barkada at school but it's not that i don't want to be with them (though sometimes, i do... labo). i tend to forget my school works, except for the time when i went to see mom and research at an agency near her office, which drains every ounce of me (okay, drama).

so yesterday, i heard my brother on the phone with my mom telling her that he would be spending lunch with her again. since i was done with enlistment and bored, i told him that i would be going too.

can i just say that i like riding trains? ahaha anyway,i got off at katipunan to ride the train to recto. i feel like i'm really cool coz i was reading a book the whole time. okay, feeling intelligent.

fastforward... lunch was okay, had a burger which i have been craving for lately. my brother let my mom taste fro-yo. fastforward again. when we got to her office, i got really bored. so i decided to go somewhere.

and my feet brought me to makati business district.

i really like going to ayala center spontaneously. and my favorite time would be around 4:30pm onwards, when i get to see working boys and girls on their way home or rushing to be on time with their graveyard shift. along ayala ave., i get to see a good mix of people whom i shall be meeting someday when i work at makati business district.

besides the fort, i have a soft spot for greenbelt. it must be the "peaceful" environment when compared to other malls. so i spent almost two hours walking around and when i paused and sat down on a bench outside, i began to wonder, why is it that near our house, we don't have a park that's comparable to greenbelt. okay, maybe i'm just inspired by the favorite spot of tom (500 Days of Summer). ahahah

i also learned from this wandering that a bus ride from ayala to philcoa on a monday night rush hour will take you an a hour and a half. also, it's better to get a bus at edsa under the mrt station than at ayala since buses at the latter are mostly crowded.

sembreak na!!! wohooo... what to do? what to do? it's getting stranger, everyday. thanks to technology. strange in a funny way.

i just wanna share, i feel like i'm back to my high school ways. walang improvement.