the battle lies within

that's the tagline of spiderman 3. i just want to rant that i agree with that. we are always in struggle, and this struggle is found within us. and what struggle? that is to do good. i believe that man is good and that all of his action should be intended towards the good. however, we make decisions that are not good in nature. it is for the reason that we have distorted the concept of what good is really about. yes, our environment may influence us but we can choose not to, because of our will. and what made write this philo-anthro-ish post? it's because every time i wake up or i go to sleep, i feel this struggle. am i going to live my day out according to and doing good? have i lived my day right - doing good? consistently, no is the answer. and i am really guilty, coz that only means i'm not practicing my freedom well. bad. really bad. and what makes it worse is that i believe that struggles should not be left as they are. you should try to win over them. (sigh) i have to admit, i feel that i'm losing this battle. i badly need a spark. inspiration. but where? who? what? enough of this very random post. this just makes me more of a loser.