where is she? where is she? why did she have to leave that early when i returned just for her? hehe. i never had this feeling since high school. anyway, i have bigger problems to solve. i'll just try to act like a super-human. ehehe

i failed my social experiment last night.

i failed my social experiment last night. i went to the jpes party at ascend, bonifacio high street alone because i want to meet new (non-ua&p) friends. unfortunately, i wasn't able to due to the hassles. it's good that some of my fifth year friends were there. and i found a new company. i met some fourth year iep . also, i was really close to meeting my crush but some asoge rushed her to go home. damn! i didn't really enjoy what happened last night.

school of economics week

the school of economics finally ended. it's not that i want to end right away. actually, i would like to extend it for two more weeks - and that's how much fun i had from the week. it started with the get-together with dr. bernardo villegas, who just arrived from his break at spain, last tuesday august 12. he told us the vision of the IEP program 39 years ago, which was to be the leading think-tank here not only in the country but also in the world. he also shared to us how his life was when he was spain - comparing it to boston, where he had his graduate studies, decades ago. it was quite enriching. actually, i dubbed that tuesday, 12th of august as my talk day. i had a talk regarding the state of the nation address organized by polis, political economy's org. it featured speeches from dr. anthony golez of the government, adel tamano - the spokesperson of united opposition, alex brillantes - representing the academe and dean of a college in UP, and gov. salceda of albay. the next activity for the school of economics week was the SEC night. it showcased the talents (and the sabaw-ness) of the iep students and faculty. our batch, the juniors, presented a dance choreographed by bl and ralph tomenes and a cheer prepared by rjude. the seniors had a mini-skit with dances in between, which actually followed the theme of the event: superheroes. the super-seniors, i mean 5th year, presented a wacky puppet of paul and john plus a dance portion. certainly, the faculty also presented with recognizing the economic superheroes of the school of eco. awards, such as jumper mobility blah blah award, for each batch were given between the presentations and before the announcement of winner. the fourth year won the presentation. a sabaw dinner followed with people having pictures taken with the personalities of iep such as dr. villegas, dr. U, supermanzano, dr. abola. that night did not just end with the dinner. the juniors were "initiated" by the super-seniors, john, nikko, and paul castillo. composed of drew, ralph, bl, rjude (the new recruits) and me (initiated already during the ewer awards) beat the super-seniors in a counter-strike match for "one hours." lastly, they also introduced us to the BI(buhat-inom) lifestyle by sharing a round of red horse and extra joss. although a holiday, most of the iep, abep, and faculty of SEC went to ua&p for the School of Economics Sportsfest. starting with a torch relay of the students and faculty, all of us ran for a fun-run around the campus, played futsal, volleyball, table tennis, basketball, dodgeball. it was really tiring but all the work was paid with free lunch from mcdonald's and pizza from yellow cab. it was fun taunting at the upper batchmen and even to the faculty. we ranked 2nd behind the fourth year. i just wished i got to know my crush. i had the opportunity but i let it go coz she gave me her excess slice of pizza (if i could just frame the slice). thanks to UA&P-BEA for the wonderful week.

i am really stupid. more stupid than my mouth. bow

when was the last time that i became harsh to myself? now, i invite you to come and join me in my self mutilation on this blog. please feel free to write anything that you desire. if you know where this post would lead to, please comment and connect something to it. hi arjay! tarantado. mukha kang gago. para kang tanga. wala kang hiya. sino ka? ano akala mo sa sarili mo? di ka na nahiya. patapon ka! burn in hell! burn in the fourth circle of hell! di ka na natuto. wala ka na sa katinuan. dalhin ka sana ng walang awat na ipo-ipo sa kung saan ka man nababagay. patapon ka! B.S. ka. woohoo... please, paki-connect na lang. thanks. yours truly, arjay

and if you still don't understand

when you are in the battlefield, you don't just pop your head out, shoot your enemies, and rely mainly on your bullet-proof vest. you think, and wait for the right timing. then, you shoot. and shooting is not just pulling the trigger. you aim with your scope, let the target fall on the dead center of the crosshair. and only after that you pull it. you try to hide at first. not because you're scared but you patiently wait for the timing. lastly, you don't attack and if nothing happens, you run away or foolishly defend yourself. you first have to protect your head, your arms, your torso. i see you open, can i just shoot you in the head?