those damn grades

i'm really depressed. i got a 3.0 for philo-anthro. damn. i know, at least i passed the subject. the problem is that it's sore to the eyes. of whom? whoever will interview or hire me. when? during ojt - that is if i get to reach the fifth year or at work itself. also, i really don't know why i can't still feel the pressure to get good grades. it seems that for the past five semesters and two summers, i've been really lazy. mediocre performance. i know i could do more, but why couldn't i do it? damn. now, i'm mad at myself. i'm expecting lower grades from the other subjects. why? i've been slacking the whole sem. pa-banjing-banjing, ika nga. asar talaga. pero bakit ngayon lang ako naaasar? labo noh? arrgghh... i thought that this was a feel good sem. sorry ma and pa.