ang hindi ko makalimutang prom

i made this for the yahoo groups of our section let this be my golden opportunity to really share what i feel about the recent prom... 1st... ginanap xa ng sobrang aga, ano ba yan??!! kids b tau na sobrang bata talaga... di ba nila naisip ang init pa nun... kung ang babae nga eh nagrereklamo na sa init ng gown pa nila... eh pano pa kaming mga lalake na naka-coat, at di lang un, ung iba na trench coat, dark ang pang-ilalim(tulad ko all black) 2nd... mejo nafrustrate ako sa mga candidate... to be honest, i'm expecting, kapal ng mukha ko noh?!?!?! pero hindi un eh... pano ung mga todo-effort sa kanilang suot at gumastos ng sobrang mahal para lamang mag-akala at umasa na mananalo o kahit makakuha lng ng PRESTIHIYOSONG numerong iyon... may ilan n ngpatahi ng coat o bumili pero ang mahal at hindi makatarungan 3rd... ang sarap ng food!!!(walang halong balintuna sa sinabi ko, as in)ang sarap ng fetuccini(tama ba spelling ko, pkicorrect ako pagnabasa mo na)... para xang butter na hinugis na para magmukhang iyon... ika nga ni lenard, "dapat daw nagdala n lng xa ng bread" sarap nun in fareness... i-toast mo pa... yummy...ü ung chicken, chicken naman xa sumhow, kaso parang kulang sa lasa... oo!!! wla pa ngang sauce eh... ay sorry, meron pla di lang ako inabutan... parang rice... nagabang lang ako ng mananalo eh naubusan na ko ng rice... naawa nga ako sa kwento ni erntot na nagrereklamo daw ang mga caterer, maxado daw na inookray ang pagkain nila... ang mahal naman ng food nila... para bang ginintuan, kaso gnun n lng ba kamahal ang butter at lasang butter ang fettuccini... ung drinks din... ano ba yan!!! tubig!!! tama ba yan, prom tubig lang... TARAY ha!!! pati ba ang lasa ng pagkain at inihahain na pagkain ay tinitipid na parang pagtitipid ng gobyerno natin... 4th... ang daming pasaway... oo, bawal magblack na dress, hanapin nyo sa mga pictures nyo kung SINO kaya ung nakablack... hahaha... mukhang matrona!!! kulang na lng ung sobrang dami na glitters sa black dress ng isang matrona na gurang(redundant???!!!) na mahilig mag ballroom dancing... bato-bato sa langit tamaan ay english proficient... hehehe... libelous na tong pinagsasabi ko... siguro kung may kasama ako dito, kanina pa tau tawa ng tawa... hehehe... idagdag pa dito ang masquerade party thing nila!!! lintik na!!! anak ng hue!!! ang daming naka-mask, ulit... pano ang mga todo-effort sa mask nila... ehem, ehem, ehem... 5th... ang saya ng dance... i'm going to share you my experience regarding d prom, wla xang kwenta, corny...nagkakasiyahan kami sa pagkuha ng litrato, sobrang saya namn ng nun eh... kaso nung narinig namin sabihin ni ma'am ambas na pwede nang pumasok sa ylagan hall, napaupo n lng kmi sa kung saanman... tipong dead air kung may kausap ka sa fone... para bang namatay ang alaga mong si bantay... at kung ano bang kalungkutan ang pumasok sa inyong kukote... sino ba nmn ang matutuwa kung ang maririnig mo na mga kanta sa dancefloor ay ang mga kanta na maririnig mo pag pasok mo sa skul, pag-uwi mo gling s skul(kung sa jeep o fx ka sumasakay tulad ko, isang dukha)at manonood ka ng noontime shows na wla namang kwnta, mga reality-based artista search(starstruck,scq and the likes) at mga ubod ng kacornihan na mga "comedy show" daw(agen, redundant) hehehe... tipong chopeta, chocolate, at kung ano pang kacornihan(ung kanta na may hahaha sa lyrics)... bad 3p nga eh... but i knew it all along... sana lng nagpatugtog cla ng naayon sa okasyon... pangsaway pero wag lng pangpatok... kulang na lang ay uupo ka sa jeep na may libreng masahe dahil sa lakas ng bayo ng bass, at may libre pang hair blower s sobrang bilis... nga pla sa ganitong jeep mararanasan mo ang zero-gravity!!! taray... teka, napalayo ako haeto pa ang masama, nung isasayaw ko na ang dapat kong isayaw sa last dance dhil sabi nila ay last three songs na daw... ung dalawa pinalampas ko, tpos ung last tinira ko... kc nageexpect ako ng sobrang mushy na song... ung pinapangarap ko ay parang hinulog na glass mula sa tuktok ng petronas, parang sinagasaan ako ng ako'y nasa pedestrian lane khit na green light sa lane... ang saki... para bang, sinaksak ako ng tatlong beses at kalahati... ang nagdurugo kong puso ay sinindihan ng kung anuman at wala nang ibang pumasok sa isip ko kung hindi ang mga katagang... "p***ng inang mobile yan... t!ng inang mobile yan... sumpain ang mobile na yan... sino ba yang mother f***in n mobile na yan at mapaslang..." muntikan na ngang mandilim ang paningnin ko eh... hehehe... ang oa ko naman... pero true to...^hay naku, hanggang ngaun ay may hangover pa ako sa galit ko sa mga kantang choopeta, chocolate, ung kanta na tawa daw ng tawa at simula ngaun, KASUMPA-SUMPA ang Pinoy novelty songs... 6th... khit ganito sumhow, nagenjoy ako at naranasan ko ang prom...ang prom... ang prom...

all apologies

maybe you'll be wondering why my blog's named this way: it is from the song "Standing on the edge of summer" by Thursday. the vocalist said that it was about her grandmother dying and he was there when it took place. he want to let us know the value of people(according to a downloaded live version). it was said that: "in this house of cars, we are holding hearts and spades... when the people you love get lost in the shuffle when you leave, you leave, nothing but broken heart let it go and you fold" i was taking my math test when this line hit me. it suddenly played around my mind for a long time. i was thinking of why? why? why? then i remembered what the song meant(according to my own understanding). with the help of what the vocalist told, i came up with this purpose and urge to reflect on the things that has been killing me. and again the song played on my mind. now i have something to share to you. the lines were killing me. stabbing me. count the letters and those were the number of the wounds i got from these tragic thoughts. hanging around with you for a short period time was really fun.and i mean it!!! the ends of my lips touched. and i can't help but just to smile and this was the only thing i knew when i'm with you. but behind that fake smiles were the thoughts which keep on pulling my lips back. it was all about you. the time i was with you was just a time of reflection. questions were raised. thinking if what we have was for real. or just for show. how long would this last? where would this end? the weight of the questions were on my shoulders. i was so drowned with emotionally charged songs and relating it to my life. i can see a clear connection among the song, you and me. then, i suddenly realized i was so selfish. i was stupid. i can not even feel your presence though we were so close. the song made my eyes open. i should be valuing the time i am spending with you. i was so foolish that you were so near yet so far. and for that short period of time, i tried to be happy. at first, it was so hard and i feel very obliged. but as i spend enough minutes and hours with you, that just made me feel i was blown away by great storm and made me realize that the minutes i'm spending with you was the heaven i have been longing to live. and it may be the greatest. the place was cold but you by my side was the warmth i really need. this event was one of my, call it stereotype, most unforgettable moment. how i wish i could turn back time. all i can do was to just wish it would all happen again. pray. pray. pray. now the lyrics haunting me again. telling me that i must have spend it better when i realized it earlier. my eyes are tired and hands are weary, think i have to end this... but you, i promise that you...

a picture from the bus i'm riding. somewhere in laguna, philippines 

i found a new one

a week ago, the votes were cast and the winners stood above from the losers. unfortunately, i was a loser. after not going to class for a week, spending hours on your campaign materials, wasting your time and saliva to people not listening to you and seeing them sleepy on your talk, shocked after hearing useless and irrelevant questions. you will then lose in the elections. how sad... but it was ok. i knew it all along. she was deserving to win the position. maybe it was not really for me. i have been trying to get a position in our student council but i still haven't. i meant to watch them to do their stuff. and not to mention, criticize them.(joke!!! peace out!!!) i realize from this unfortunate event that people trusted me. eighty-five of our batch. i would like to thank them. also those who abstained. i appreciated your effort thinking of me. and also who took their time in thinking between me and my opponent though they chose her over me. thanks. but what i really realized is that i knew who my friends really are. those who trusted me. and she exemplified it well(now i'm pertaining to another she, more special she). it really made my heart feel the warmth of your trust. and until now, i'm still feeling it. i just want to thank you for the efforts you have made. for three days, you have missed your voice just to go to every room and do your thing. i'm hoping it was for real but i do believe it was. thanks for showing me your support. having it is like getting the sympathy of my batch. you were also there to cheer me up when i knew the saddest aftermath. your tap, though it hurts, is like the gentlest touch i have recieved when i really needed it. spending that moment with you was like, awwwwwww... and i can't find words but to say, awwwwwww... this is (and not was coz this one is a general truth) one of my happiest moment. it occupied so much in my mind. though i lost the battle, i was still there not raising the white flag but standing up with much honor only to realize... i found a new one and i found it in you.

This is my first time

so... un na nga... this is my first time to do this... honestly speaking, i dont know what to do... it's like going into a war, without gun, grenades or even a vest and helmet for protection... but what motivated me to go into a war i call, innocence, (dude it's innocence and not foolishness) it was this so called passion... passion to write i feel.. i was looking for a good way so that i can write or express feelings pissing me of... hehe... it's a good thing, this thing existed... sh*t nanginig ako... ganyan talaga feeling ng first timer...