words don't come with ease blah blah blah

i was just wondering... why are we waking up in the morning with so much trouble in our heads? we often tell ourselves that we should let another day come coz hopes will be high... but what had just happened... i woke up yesterday with so many problems... and i think, this stuff must not bother me... it will just ruin my day... but i can't fight the feelings... and these feeling's are bothering... i don't know... i'm helpless... so my saturday's some kinda ruined... it was all around my head... and you know what... it was about you... coz friday night, i was expecting messages from you... it was unusual of you, not to reply... it troubled me... a lot... yes, a lot... the reason? i don't know... and then came your messages that i wasn't expecting... and i was confused... if i was to reply or just do what you just did... at first, i was planning not to reply at all, but being as hypocrite as i was, i immediately replied(like i don't have some plans to do the same favor)... who could resist the chance to see her on a party... and i said "yes, i'm coming..." and in my mind, just to see you and not the celebrant... but you didn't fail my hopes... there you came, so plain, square and ordinary... but you're stunningly gorgeous... damn... i was so foolish, foolish enough because i wasn't able make some conversations with you... no words at all... not even goodbyes... all i can think of was it was again another product of me being so timid... and with the help of the doubts and fears i have been carrying all day... then came this morning... no changes... same feeling... but now, with the thought that i'm regreting i was not able to make some conversations... or even a slight touch from you... as i was soundtrippin' while doing this post... i stumbled upon some lines from a coheed and cambria song... it was quite good coz this could compliment my feeling right now... "words don't come with ease they are forever my hurt" so here i go again and i don't know how to end this one... and this post ends with no sense at all...